Just for today

I was ready to take a nap at 3 something in the afternoon, but then someone knocked my door and it's daddy, he just came back from fishing and he straight away came to my room after he stepped into the house. so, he asked how was the uni thing? i answered him i got uum international business management. he said this course is quite good. if compared financial economics and international business, the second one is wider and got chances touch on oversea either for working or further study. he told me that he been there before and the campus is quite nice and got a huge compound but it's not nicer than UTAR of course, less entertainment also. i strongly agree when he talk about the entertainment part as the place is really placed in the jungle and i need to stay with monkeys insects and other else. so daddy said just spend your 3 years there and get the degree and you can do whatever you like after that. or he can get me a car and i can go where ever i want during holidays or when i'm free. i told him i really don't like the life there as it's really like i'm going to lost my freedom if i staying there. the uni need to wear formal all the time. long sleeves long pants. he asked me to choose, or i want to study in UTAR. both he support, as long as i like it. i pinch myself that time as i felt that my tears are coming out and i try my very best to control and control. i found that i couldn't control my tears once touch such topic. daddy asked to think properly and let him know once i got my answer. he talked to me softly and i cried like nobody's business after he stepped out from my room. i am so helpless and still need to hold my head high. it was 2 something in the midnight but i was still awake, without caffeine. i can smile and make everyone else's day better, even if behind that smile i cry. okay, i just tell myself, life is like that, it still have to go on. accept life's ups and downs, and know that they only make me stronger in the end. i will understand that doing what is right and knowing what is right are separate issues, but with strength i can bring them together to make the world a better place. i will be confident that life is like a mirror, if you smile at it, it smiles back and what goes around comes around, so one day that smile will return to me :)